-I JUST MISS U-

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one i want to share it with …

i miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well…

I miss you when i laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears dissapear…

I miss you all the time, but i miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other and for those were some of the best times of my life…

I dont write to tell you that i love you and not to ask you for explanations that now you are not on time…

I just write you to express my feelings in this short paragraph that i want to tell you that i really loved you as i demostrated you, i dont know what happened but its too late…

-DESTINY-

I dream of when we next will meet
To hear your voice again
I know my heart will miss a beat
You’re more than just a man

I really should not feel this way
And though it may be wrong
I can’t just do what others say
With feelings so deep and strong

How can I change the way I feel
I need a switch to my heart
Life without you isn’t real
The pain’s too great when we’re apart

Life’s destiny had in store
Something we cannot deny
Please do not close the door
I don’t want you to say Goodbye

The love I have is so real
Such joy within my heart
These emotions I want to feel
Without pain when we are apart

When we each say “i do”

Each day i love you more and more
My heart it over flows and i have to wonder to myself
Do i always let it show.
I know that i can be stubborn
The truth i dont always see it hides away in the dark
Waiting to be set free
Afraid to put my trust in you
Afraid that you will leave
That you will take my heart again
And throw it back at me
But as much as i fear the love, it grows inside me still
Filing me with thoughts of you
Its the pain i want to kill
My heart aches for you Sweetheart
Its so full its about to burst
In my life you will always be, the one that i put first
Im sorry if i ever hurt you
My love does not always show but i can make this promise to you
My love for you continues to grow
I swear to always be here for you
And i know you will be here for me too
I cant wait for that special day
When we each say “i do”
We will live happily forever
In a home overflowing with love and each night before i close my eyes
I will thank our God above for giving me someone so special
A love thats always true
If i ever lost you Sweetheart, i dont know what i would do
You are the reason im happy
The reason that i live and for your happiness Darling
My life i would gladly give
Please dont forget that i love you and that i need you so much in my life
And we will be together forever
As husband and as wife

-SOME PEOPLE MAY ASK-

Some people may ask, why i do this ?
Many people may think, its to attention seek
The others may not notice, in their world of content

Some people may ask, why i do this ?
When im alone i see things in a different value
Guilt and fear, the pain makes them all disapear

Somepeople may ask, why i do this ?
Some day your world may end, when not everyone is a friend
Makes everything fade away

Some people may ask, why i do this ?
Not everyone will see, in the same light as me
Through the hurt…and for only a moment , im at peace

Silently Silent Tears

Wait, its never too late
Unable to decide and unable to comprehend
What i saw and what i witness

A silence braks through my thoughts
What was once many great ideas is now a lost
And inside myself , i take cover
What would it be like to stay there forever?
To be lost in all my cares ?
From inside and im looking out
I cry silent tears

Never quite really understand
These colourful emotions and what they were trying to tell me or do to me
The cautious person that life forced me to be
I was sceptical of life itself

The time to decide and the time to take action
Was thrust upon me in one single night
Seosons change and as the once silent heart
Whispered its way back into my life
The word that were silent came back alive

Just a couple of simple words
I promised myself i would not cry
Another day comes and goes
As i reach out to this thing called life
Ready waiting to share it with you

Would You Just Listen ?

Would you just listen and please don’t say a word, just yet,
I’d like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,
But please don’t speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,
But now I’d like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,
I’ll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I’ve got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don’t regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I’ll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn’t have to part.

You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don’t say a word, not ever,
I’d like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,
And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.

-Missing Piece-

You do what you’re suppose to do, with no frown or fuss.
Not because you want to , but because you must.
Day after day It’s like a routine.
Don’t have too much to say, You only do the right thing.
Soon you feel empty, but you don’t know what it could be.
You want no sympathy.
But it’s something you can’t see
Everything used to make sense, but now you’re lost in a maze.
You feel so tense, and you pray for better days.
Something just doesn’t seem right
You look for an answer that’s not there.
You stay awake all night, But you feel like no one cares.
It’s right in your face and you think it’s safe,
or should you forget?
Things don’t seem the same, But what should you do?
You think you should change, But change for who?
Understanding means nothing to you now.
Your heart is pronounced deceased
This should you allow , or find your missing piece?

Feeling Abandonment

I keep looking for comfort from you
I sit and wonder if your love is true
You see me crying
Inside you have to know I’m dying
Don’t you see these tears
Don’t you see the hurt from so many years
The little girl that was hurt so bad
Is now 22 years old and utterly sad
No one to listen or even to talk to
Recalling memories that hurt me through and through
The things you ask of me
It triggers a memory
Memories I’d rather forget
Memories embedded in my mind, completely set
The hurt, the pain and anger won’t go away
I wonder who “loves me” and will turn their back today
I can’t explain how I feel inside
Feelings of abandonment rush in like the tide
Ghosts haunt me no matter where I go
I do love you still, that you should know
I wish you could understand
I would be there holding your hand
I would take away all your pain
So in the end, you’d have a life to gain
But for me, darkness is all I see
No happiness for this little girl is to be
The adult lives her life
Taking on happiness, sorrow and strife
I hope someday you’ll understand
Someday I hope you’ll be here to comfort me and hold my hand
Until that day all I feel is punishment

“Trouble Free”

If only I knew how’s it going to be
If only when I try to fix things, they became better
If only I was certain of how others feel
And if only people believed what I say…

If I knew how to show what I really felt
If I knew how to make people understand
If I knew how to make them believe
If I knew how to make them happy

If making people happy doesn’t leave me sad
If making them understand doesn’t make me an ignorant
If making them believe doesn’t make me a liar
And if letting them know how I feel doesn’t leave me numb

Things would’ve never reached that point
I know I would be in a much happier place
No one would ever blame me for not caring
No one would blame me for not thinking

That’s life ….You’re never certain
You never know, you’re never sure
You’re not going to live that dream of yours
And life would never be “trouble free”

You have to live with what you have
You try to fix the broken glass
You try to collect the shattered pieces
You make the best of everyday

It’s like a train that never stops
Keep going through life without pausing
Just live each day and throw it behind you
Don’t look back or you’ll break your neck !

HOW SICK IS THIS ??

You are right!!! I don’t  wanna be here…. And I don’t wanna be there…

We argue sometimes, and forget about it!

Eventhough you started it, but not tonight

Helped me to correct it, I know that im wrong

I don’t know why im doing this either

I know you are right and you won!

Thank you for special moments, you and me…..

You always here in my mind…

Im  thankful  for that time….

Im asking why?? But I’ll never know…

You know your memory come with me!

And I will never  forget

The first time you know me

The first time you want me

The first time you need me

The first time you love me

Who the last to know you????

The last to need you

The last to want you

The last to love you

Im just ordinary girl that living in an extraordinary life

My heart had a crash when he spoke

That he can fix what he was broken ……

You always hav e a reason again and again…

Baby I need you to turn me over

Why you so blind???

It hurts and I cant remember

Im still awake , im in love

In love with a dream

I must have lost my mind

I cant believe that you’re still inside me

Last night you want me to loving you again….

How sick is this?

Why you never ever understand us ??

I hate it when you always trying to talk about this

Can you hear me ? now!!!

So please understand…..How sick is this ??