HOW SICK IS THIS ??

You are right!!! I don’t  wanna be here…. And I don’t wanna be there…

We argue sometimes, and forget about it!

Eventhough you started it, but not tonight

Helped me to correct it, I know that im wrong

I don’t know why im doing this either

I know you are right and you won!

Thank you for special moments, you and me…..

You always here in my mind…

Im  thankful  for that time….

Im asking why?? But I’ll never know…

You know your memory come with me!

And I will never  forget

The first time you know me

The first time you want me

The first time you need me

The first time you love me

Who the last to know you????

The last to need you

The last to want you

The last to love you

Im just ordinary girl that living in an extraordinary life

My heart had a crash when he spoke

That he can fix what he was broken ……

You always hav e a reason again and again…

Baby I need you to turn me over

Why you so blind???

It hurts and I cant remember

Im still awake , im in love

In love with a dream

I must have lost my mind

I cant believe that you’re still inside me

Last night you want me to loving you again….

How sick is this?

Why you never ever understand us ??

I hate it when you always trying to talk about this

Can you hear me ? now!!!

So please understand…..How sick is this ??

 

PLEASE TO INTRODUCE YOUR SELF BEFORE I GET TO SHY…

I  am over here , looking at you!!!

You are over there, watching me too !!!

Tell me why we’re standing here ??

If we try one more time

Maybe, someday we’ll understand….

So PLEASE TO INTRODUCE YOUR SELF BEFORE I GET TO SHY

And please say something….say something good for me…

Tell me why we’re still in here ??

There’s nothing for us to fear

I cant tell if my eyes closed

And im ready to go….

When I opened my eyes again

I can feel your heart, what your heart says to me ….

Im speechless again, when I saw you…

But the time you got this messege

Its gonna be late, cause I’ll be on my way

The way that you will never know….

Well first time I didn’t know?

But its so clear to me, now…you are stting next to me

I bet you’re wondering

Just look into my eyes, just everything was so blurry and keep my passion

So difficult to keep pretending

You probably haven’t got clue

But I wish you knew, how I like you so …..

So I cant wait please say something good for me !!!                     

When you’re here next to me…

The feeling that im feeling couse I have no choice

I can feel that “chemistry” and don’t know what I have to say….

But the “chemistry” make me feel confused

Please say something….that words, and I cant wait anymore….

Also please to introduce your self before I get to shy…..

 

 

 

Innocent Love

everytime i saw you with that girl , it blows my mind..

but i dont have time to think about it!!!

all i know is that you’re here for me and that’s it!!

and you spend most of my days, finding difrrent ways…

im leaving my life in your hands

people say i’m crazy that i’m blind!!

i dont care who you are ??

but i want to be real thing, it’s too late now !!

i dont think it can be fade , it’s to real now !!

i just a normal person, i was still soft…

such a cute girl, im so jealous…

i need to have you here…

it cant be sincere, unless you spend time here…

i need you completly….

because for a long time i was in love …

not only in love, i was obsessed…

just feel scared, it would be happened again to me !!

who…who will be the one to save me from my self??

there’s no way out!! but im not frightened…

i never wanted to fall again….

my heart was wounded!!

my tears was empty , but i dont care…

from where i’ve been before, then i met you..

how could i know ??

when i saw you , everythought that i had about love…

would finally my dream come true ??

since i saw you close…

all of my tears dissapeared coz’ of you

all i know everything about you, can made me curious…

but i cant pretend, im not afraid of…

what we have broken…

there is one thing we should always remember..

we are TAKEN….

since three years, you were turtoring me …for real…

i always follow my heart , everytime im with you…

i know this is not fair for us, but our love is innocent….

i always feel bad…

when i realized, i cant have you perfectly…

that’s impossible for us, but almost three years…

we both feel suffer for a loss

loss you is hardest part and beside you is happiness part in my life.. 

but i do believe …OUR LOVE IS INNOCENT….

the beautiful flaw

My friend get drunk and she just blacked out…and it really make me rush…

Suddenly he came…”r u guys oke ?”

Hmmm then I was starring at him properly…

He looked really familiar like someone that I know before…

Then…..the truth is hard to believe…

We’re in holiday …and we met eachother in bali…

And he pretended that he cant speak an Indonesian…

And he’s  a great actor in the world…..

Im so proud of u darl….u good on it !! damn!!!

Then u were sleeping next to me …tried to cuddle me …

And I felt warm and confortable…

He kissed me passionately , He don’t even care “my uncle” was sleeping next to us !!! it sounds really crazy….but me too …I don’t care about it…

First I was thinking that we would never meet each other again…

Suddenly ..i heard that he came to Jakarta

And obviously you lived here…damm!!

Oh my god that was surprising me , for real….

Then we catch up each other….sometimes we’re acting like a couple…

And as long as I know about you…

everything is so complex….for us being together….

We met often everyday…and spended times a lot together…

I do I like him so much even I love him…

But its doesn’t mean that much for him…

He never appreaciate me as his girl…ask me to much…for everything

But in other side I didn’t see his effort with me…

He just don’t love me that much…and I need to be loved…

I try to understand you…but I don’t know how ?

I try to make this works, but you’re not even try at all

So what am I suppose to do ???

You’re always put the blame on me even it’s not my fault..

But thank you for everything….(^_^)

 

 

 

 

 

Made in arabic

heyya….you are looking good

i love the way you move ….i like ur style…..

so here i am , looking pretty for you xoxo

it’s just like heaven…

nobody’s gonna break my heart, and hurt me like yesterday they did…

can’t u come and take me away…

take me to another place !!!

everytime that you are walking by…

there’s something about the way that’s giving me…

maybe it’s all in my mind!!!

so let me to introduce my self before i get to shy ….

but im giving you my number now before this goes to far …

it’s getting really hot in here…

and soon it will be hard to say goodbye…

the times is not right to say goodnight…

is this love or desire ??? love or desire??

you dont even know me….like u knew me….

like you saw me….in the dark night

im not frightened without i could never feel the sun …

im still gonna be the same….

instead of looking into mine ….and i got the feeling

the more that i see you , the more that i know ….

no matter what we do!!

and i was so happy being with you…darl

just adored you…but u have been marriage!!!

you are a young man and became a father …..

a…a….a…that was so cool …dude !!!

but did u realized that i adored u ?

that’s made me jealous and hopeless…(^_^)

in fact…

pretty much everything i know about u ….

it’s totally perfect….that’s why i adored u ….

you all i need in my life , even dont know much!!!

i like everything about u dude !!

real girls are not afraid to be truly

this allows me to feel warm and fuzzy

no matter what happens….

most important thing…

my friends keep telling me…

i dont have to prefer one type of guy, and it’s true…

i admid…i like all kind of guy

just like colors …

but a guy should not be the biggest thing in my life ….

but just i adored u ….and i hate to be….

and you reasonable to accepted

im out of control, dude….

just the way i am…im still on my way ….

im just a girl who adored u ….xoxo

forgive me….

i really like to see you…

but it doesn’t mean you that much to me!!!

im not in love, i was wrong….

but still i kept your ring that u gave it to me …

i do care about u !

and the truth is hard to take…

im not trying for lesson in love with you

why i never learn ? and i got no answer….

just still keep thinking about my past…

i cant deny what i feel inside

if only one night i can forget

just for a one night darling….

i already try to ignored that things!!!

but what am i suppose to….

your love can made me fed up …and now u got me twisted!!

everytime i try to ending…

i wonder…why i feel a little up set??

im so glad to meet you, but the timing was wrong!!

you’re all im thinking, always in my mind…

i’ve prayed to meet someone like you

but i promised to never fall in love with a man

im feeling blue like ususally

all i know…

everything not to be so cold…

and the more i feel that i grow up a little bit…

no body can handle me….no body….

then i told u, i was standing next to you…

i know u lovin’ me, like i asked you…

you told me that , you’ll never find another lover than me

but my heart cant lie to you, like yesterday i did…

i dont mean to be cruel with you….but my past…

he’s always hounted me!!! please forgive me…

i just have no reason to always standing here…with you …

our love…

i want to review my kisses

darling…

i want to review my kissies, on every inch of your body

i want to reveal my secreats, that only you should know

i feel all this pain inside me, that only your lips can made me feel better…

i want to review my kissies with you…xoxo

but i just forgot….about us…

when the rain fall down, i remembered…

the moment when u kissed me and hold me tight…

and until now…still i cant believe ….

why u did something awfull with me ??

i just wanna go away…

saving all your “bullshit” for another day….

i think …i’ll miss it one day…

turn down our memories of yesterday…

and my broken dream i bring to night…

darling….

i dont mind us being some kind of usual thing….

hmm…have you come back and take all of me ???

sorry if i ain’t perfect….

i woke up this morning with a smile on my face

and nobody’s gonna bring me down today

feeling like nothing’s been going my way lately…and i decided…

say goodbye to all the tears i’ve cried!!!

im gonna miss a sweet kisses from you…

just i want to review my kisses…with you xooxoooxoox

it’s all about Rebecca

i’m a woman…

i’m one of the girls who was born in march…

i’m pisces and made in Indonesia

i love green and violet…

i’m an angel, i’m a devil,i’m sometimes in between…i’m as bad as it can get and good as it can be !…

sometimes i’m a million of colors…

sometimes i’m black and white…i’m all extrems,try to figure me out ?…

you never can do, you never understand…

there’s so many things i’m…

i’m special…i’m beautiful…

i’m wonderful and powerful… unstoppable,

sometimes i’m miserable…

sometimes i’m pitiful…and jealousy,

but that’s so typical of all the things i am…

i’m someone filed with self-belief and haunted by self-doubt…

i got all the answer…i’ve got nothin figured out…

i like to be by my self…i like someone attention me…i’m lovely

and i hate to be alone and you know i’m alone but never lonely…

i’m up and down,almost fly like a bird… but that’s part of the thrill… part of the plan…part of all the things i am…

i’m a million contradictions…

sometimes i make no sence,sometimes i’m perfect…

sometimes i’m foolish but i’m goodish ;p…

sometimes i’m mess, sometimes i’m not sure who i am…

but i’m warm and fuzzy, sometimes i’m a princess for someone…

sometimes i’m clown for everybody around me…

sometimes i’m quiet, sometimes i’m noisy…

sometimes i’m a good girl,sometimes i’m a rebel but that’s so typical of all the things i am…all of the things i am…..so please ‘lovin’ me….;-)

it’s all about rebecca xoxo

i cry secretly

hmmm…

just cant say the word, that i have to say ….

please dont asking me why ? i have no detail…

cause it ain’t my thing all this articulating, just a little heart break!!

why make it more than it seems?

i just had much better…

get back to dreaming my dreams!!!

well… i have been thinking we’ll meet again someday until we do…

let’s just say, saying more and more…

wish i could be free!

oh…that’s just not me, i dont really wanna go

but just only one way to safe me from this and…

i cant tell if my eyes closed…

yea baby…i ready to go now…and please let me go…

when i opened my eyes again…

i cant handle my truth, by the time i got the message…

and we gonna be to late…

cause i’ll be on my way…

in case at the first time, i didnt realized that!!

when you are sitting next to me …

i bet ur wondering….just looking into my eyes and im looking for a man!

just everything was so cold…

will i always there to found love ??

cause the feeling ain’t same, like yesterday……i dont wanna hurt you and i dont wanna hurt my self again….

it was just a……..

Tragic ending to an all too brief love life

i heart you so much…

and i really do…xoxo